There have been, as always, highs and lows this year. It's difficult to focus on the positives too when life is plagued by illness but I wanted to make more of an effort to not let the illness and the things I can't do be the focus. There's no getting away from it, however I really think it's helped not dwelling so much on the rubbish stuff.
I've laughed a lot, been to various special events and celebrations (2016 has been the year of being able to get dressed up & partake in socialising!), visited friends in far away places, stayed in bed watching Netflix and not felt guilty about it, got a mobility scooter (woo), made lots of memories with my girlie who makes me giggle every day and basically keeps me sane! Just living life a bit (no matter how poorly I've been afterwards!!) because isn't life for living?
I've also had two vitamin D deficiencies and been mega poorly with the M.E, had lots of funny turns and and had to spend a lot of time resting... but in spite of all that I am still smiling! I feel grateful for the nice things and all the good people I have in my life. People who keep me going, who make me belly laugh and who are there when I need them. Despite the rubbish times I've still managed to find something good in each day. Even if it has been something that a lot of people would discard as not important. Little things are big things for us poorly people. I feel proud that despite being faced with many challenges, I've pretty much managed to keep positive. Not the whole time but pretty much!
Hopefully I can keep at it in 2017 and I've got some nice things to look forward to already which always helps. I find having things to look forward to really important even if I do often panic about being well enough to do them!
The last few years I have done a memory box where I've written stuff on a piece of paper that has made me smile, made me laugh or just things I know I'd forget if I didn't make a note of. I fold them up and put them away in the box. The tradition seems to have been that we open it on New Year's Eve but today after a bit of a rough week, I decided we should have an early sneak peek. It's amazing how much you forget until you are prompted and you remember clearly again. Some of the stuff made me really giggle and some just made me do a big "aaaaaaw". I can't recommend it enough.
As much as I feel like saying good riddance to 2016 for various reasons, it's also been a year of smiles and happy times for which I'm very grateful.
Wishing you all a very happy, sparkly and as healthy as possible 2017!
Ali
xx
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